"You should learn to deal with your problems." she yelled and disconnected the call. I'm kind of used to this sentence, every person who has ever been close to me has said this.It's not like that they all were talking about any emotional problem, they were talking about my health.I've a rare genetic condition in which my motor functions (control of my brain on my muscles) are impaired. Due to this I was a bit depressed!. I remember from my schooling I was a bright student but since onset of this disease my performance in studies declined rapidly,I dint had a chance for reflex action. By the time I could understand what was happening I was lying down flat on my face!. I was trying to cope up with my changed behaviour,health status and state of mind, I tried to tell my friends,family but every one thought that I was a story maker and I don't have such problems, I am making up these stories just to skip my studies. and that is how it started to aggravate, each time I asked someone for their help it ended up with a lecture how should I deal with my problems. I have a very bad habit of difficulty in saying no, may be cause I know that feel when u actually need help and people just make fun of their situation or gives you silly excuses, they say every body has problems in their lives I just want to ask them what kind of problem they are talking about!? their friend/parents/siblings dint behave properly?,break up? bad grades?. And I had difficulty with my movements, my speech,my memory and that all lead to my abnormal behaviour. every one was there, they saw this happening but yet they said I exaggerate my problems. this makes me feel either I'm too weak to deal with my problem or these people are too numb to feel my problem. I dint want sympathy but that dint mean that you can not have empathy. I remember I met her in junior high school she was in my class, she was very beautiful, intelligent. we became friends and with time friendship turned into love. I told her about my problem, my genetic condition and her reaction was unexpected, I dint expect this reaction even from the girl who hates me, and she was my so called girlfriend. when I proposed her for marriage she rejected my proposal, that hurt but was OK but the reason she gave was "I can't live with a guy who can only work on medicines, I cant handle your disease I'm sorry " I'm getting married next year please do come! and she left!. I started feeling uneasy my chest felt tight I knew it was an attack I asked my friend to drop me to the emergency. next day I called her and told her about what happened to me! when she left. and again she said "I've told you so many times don't be dependent on anyone learn to deal with your problems, I can't be there every time please take care of your self Good bye! and please leave me alone don't try to contact me again if you really love me and want to see me living happily cause I can't see you in pain I can't deal with it" and she left forever.
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