Ripple

 There are times when you think about the decisions you take. There are times when you face the consequences of the decisions you make. Usually there is some time lag between both the times and if you are lucky you will know what hit you cause things and decisions work as ripple where the water molecule is moving in response to movement of the adjacent molecule but doesn't know where it started from. 

These things these decisions hit you when you are least expecting. Mind you life can surprise you in so many ways that are beyond your imagination. The universe reacts so fast to your complains and you appreciation that whatever you complain of gets granted for you although in your head you might be saying this in a taunting or passive aggressive way but, The universe is like that nerd who is not fluent in sarcasm and rarely gets it. There are so many examples I have from experience but the latest one happened today and it was unexpected and when I look at it in retrospect there were so many signs that we missed or ignored and it just blows me away that every time every day there is something that I am missing or misunderstanding and this might come back in future and sting me. 

So the story is I have left my job to prepare for my exam and thankfully things were going well and so was study and day before yesterday while talking to my friend I mentioned that thankfully my life is going smooth at last and I am able to focus on the work and myself and he was like " don’t be too sure dude, Something or another might just be waiting for you" and we laughed it off. Today morning we realized that there is some issue with the water connection in our house and my mother went to the landlord to talk it over and it blew from there. I don’t know the whole story but looking at my mother and brother's face the conversation did not go well. He accused us of illegally possessing his house and so many other things and it was shocking and of course I lost my mind on the things he said and decided that we should be vacating the house in 10 days or so. 

The time it happened I was trying to complete my scheduled test and after this I could not focus and I am still angry at the guy and still want to move out of the house as soon as possible.

I don’t know if this is going to happen or not but I desperately want it to happen and move out of this place. So that I can say this to him “go and shove it up your arse".

May be all this was unrelated may be I am overthinking, I don't know, but soon will find out. 

 

DARKNESS

Darkness a very familiar word and familiar situation. We can define darkness as the absence of light. At the same time Darkness of thoughts/mind can be defined as absence of optimism/positive thoughts. In our normal day life we identify darkness with its black colour. Darkness of mind/thoughts can be explained with an example of any depressed person. 

A depressed person experiences the darkness of both mind and thoughts he lacks optimism in his mind and positivity in his thoughts. once a person is depressed its very hard for him to get out of it on his own and at the same time he is slipping into it rapidly. Even when the person tries to come out of it with his positive thoughts it goes all in vain,there may be several explanation of this medically. when we see this from the point of view of a physics teacher he may explain this in a different way. As we know a depressed person has darkness of thoughts and it is identified with its black colour. In physics we also know that black colour is known as a black body(Any body that absorbs all incident electromagnetic radiation regardless of frequency). when a depressed person has any thought or idea in his mind he in unable to act on it as these thoughts are absorbed in his own mind and as a result the person avoids interaction,lethargic,lost in his thoughts etc. Here he needs help from his friends and family but most of the times his actions are taken as either attention seeking or for sympathy, Of course he wants your attention actually he needs your attention when he is trying to tell you that he is in a problem. It's not your sympathy that he wants but the empathy that he needs. Your love,affection,concern towards his problem are those positive energies that can and eventually will help him to come out of his depression.

Put a smile on someones face and release some positive energy for you in the universe so that it will deliver you positive. as they say "WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND"

Your views and ideas are welcomed.

GOD? or Subconscious mind?-2

So when we think our thoughts are released in the universe as they are converted in form of electromagnetic waves which converts into energy,we always wonder how can anyone read a person's mind!? May be this can explain our curiosity that when a person thinks he emits that thought in form of electromagnetic waves and the other person who can receive this or can catch these waves can read that person's thoughts. This uses same concept as radio or TV antennae. 
 In order to find the god our ancestors left a clue for us, according to Hindu mythology it is said that "THE GOD DWELLS WITHIN YOU." May be their indication was towards our subconscious mind,our subconscious mind exchanges energy from our surrounding and has a better of what's going on in our surrounding than we think it does, it knows almost everything we need to know about our life,relation,love etc. If we could connect to our subconscious we could probably reduce/avoid our sins. As it is said in "Shrimad Bhagwat Geeta." 

"ALL THAT HAPPENS,HAPPENS FOR GOOD ONLY"

 If we could connect ourselves with our subconscious we could get "SALVATION" which is the ultimate goal of life of a human according to the Hindu mythology. It means we'll be able to see beyond our fear,beyond ourselves and will be able to lead a happy life.There are numerous other example in the series and most common and most commonly experienced of them is "déjà vu ." 
It is said that "WE ARE WHAT WE THINK", here when we think we transmit our thoughts to the outer world in form of energy and as the other adage says " WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND." This is the part where we get to decide about our life if we respond positively to any situation controlling our impulse and emotions not committing any of "7 CARDINAL SINS."our thoughts comes to us in form of actions,events or whatever we wanted them to be.Here it may sound like we are the only one who can decide our fate and the adage I mentioned above also supports our thought. Yes we decide what we are today and what are fate will be but we ain't the only ones to decide that. Beside us people around us who are part of our lives or are in regular touch with us physically/mentally/emotionally also have an impact on our life Good/bad depending upon their connection,relation with us.

"THINK" before you think/say or do anything bad to someone maybe his/your GOD won't be able to forgive you.

GOD? or Subconscious mind?

Does GOD really exist? can we prove his existence? these questions are one of the biggest unsolved mysteries for the science. In the old times few philosopher's believed that human race created the concept of god to keep a discipline in the society, to distinguish between good or bad according to GOD/religion and GOD was someone we could look for positivity/help when we were in trouble. But this doesn't explain the "miracles" of GOD. With the advancement of science our knowledge of GOD became vast. In past few years science has tried to explain the existence of GOD and it also explains his "Miracles".

It says that GOD/Allah of a person is in his brain(Subconscious mind), it may sound weird but this is what explains this.The GOD is all powerful,yet incorruptible. This image of GOD is set in our minds from our very childhood,And it changes with the perception of the person to the world, may be that is why a person who is totally corrupt and is involved in every kind of bad activities known on the face of this earth, yet he is living happily until he himself or someone makes him realize his sins(To be precised to make him realise what he did was a sin), that eventually leads to his changed perception and now he considers himself a criminal and gets punished for his sins, on the other hand a man who is nice to everyone, polite, a true gentleman, a theist.Once he had to tell a lie to save his friend from a problem,but before this he never spoke a lie,He developed a guilt that his GOD(subconscious) is going to punish him.He became ill and lost interest in everything.Our GOD is an image of powerful creature in our conscious and subconscious mind which we've been told in our childhood and we've seen in our lives,And depending upon this image our life, our decision are influenced. So we should preserve an powerful yet incorruptible image of GOD to lead a happy life.
But this is not that simple our life is also influenced by thoughts of people in our surrounding. Now comes the most interesting question how?

Our thoughts have mass, and that mass is converted into energy as told by the great scientist Albert Einstein. Every thing we think is converted into energy and is released in the universe. 

                                                                                                                             ... To be continued

Dealing with problems

"You should learn to deal with your problems." she yelled and disconnected the call. I'm kind of used to this sentence, every person who has ever been close to me has said this.It's not like that they all were talking about any emotional problem, they were talking about my health.I've a rare genetic condition in which my motor functions (control of my brain on my muscles) are impaired. Due to this I was a bit depressed!. I remember from my schooling I was a bright student but since onset of this disease my performance in studies declined rapidly,I dint had a chance for  reflex action. By the time I could understand what was happening I was lying down flat on my face!. I was trying to cope up with my changed behaviour,health status and state of mind, I tried to tell my friends,family but every one thought that I was a story maker and I don't have such problems, I am making up these stories just to skip my studies. and that is how it started to aggravate, each time I asked someone for their help it ended up with a lecture how should I deal with my problems. I have a very bad habit of difficulty in saying no, may be cause I know that feel when u actually need help and people just make fun of their situation or gives you silly excuses, they say every body has problems in their lives I just want to ask them what kind of problem they are talking about!? their friend/parents/siblings dint behave properly?,break up? bad grades?. And I had difficulty with my movements, my speech,my memory and that all lead to my abnormal behaviour. every one was there, they saw this happening but yet they said I exaggerate my problems. this makes me feel either I'm too weak to deal with my problem or these people are too numb to feel my problem. I dint want sympathy but that dint mean that you can not have empathy. I remember I met her in junior high school she was in my class, she was very beautiful, intelligent. we became friends and with time friendship turned into love. I told her about my problem, my genetic condition and her reaction was unexpected, I dint expect this reaction even from the girl who hates me, and she was my so called girlfriend. when I proposed her for marriage she rejected my proposal, that hurt but was OK but the reason she gave was "I can't live with a guy who can only work on medicines, I cant handle your disease I'm sorry " I'm getting married next year please do come! and she left!. I started feeling uneasy my chest felt tight I knew it was an attack I asked my friend to drop me to the emergency. next day I called her and told her about what happened to me! when she left. and again she said "I've told you so many times don't be dependent on anyone learn to deal with your problems, I can't be there every time please take care of your self Good bye! and please leave me alone don't try to contact me again if you really love me and want to see me living happily cause I can't see you in pain I can't deal with it" and she left forever. 

Love and Relations

Love, relationship now a days these terms are very commonly used,I'm in love,I'm in a relation with xyz. With the acceptance of society for love and relationship number of love marriages and relationships in youth has increased dramatically in past few years.
But the problem here is, now a days being in a relation has become a trend, more relations a guy or girl had before marriage more smart or beautiful he or she was. now a days relationships has almost nothing to do with love what matters is how does he/she looks her/his background and economic status of the family love is kept on the least priority, sometimes we can even manage without love,which eventually results in broken hearts,drug addicts and some times suicide.
It's not like, that true love doesn't exist now a days, it does but it has become very rare as tigers in the forests of INDIA. True love is as pure as a pearl found in the depth of the ocean,it is very beautiful,adorable,priceless and yet you can have it if you are at right place with the right person. True love is not about finding a perfect person it about finding a person who best matches with you,who will laugh on your silly jokes, who can make you smile when you are sad,who'll be there by your side in your toughest time, with whom a simple vanilla ice cream is more yummy then dark fantasy cake eaten alone. Love is when even presence of his/her makes you complete, his/her happiness is your priority. Love is when you were thinking about that special person while reading above lines.
It's not like that you can not find your true love now a days, as every thing needs sacrifices for this you'll have to sacrifice your ego,paranoid nature and most importantly you'll have to come out of your comfort zone to make your partner feel good/special. True love needs effort to make him/her realize how much you love him/her and how much you care for them, accepting their flaws and forgiving their mistakes,at the same time accepting your mistake even if you are not willing to, cause your hurt ego can heal but if with this ego you do something stupid with your relation than you'll be left with nothing but regret.
If you've ever been in true love you know it gives you high more than 5 shots of walker and a roll of marijuana taken together. you can not explain this feeling but you can share and enjoy this with those who have been through this. once a person looses his high he is afraid of getting second cause he knows that the phase of with-drawls sucks! And those who haven't been exposed yet are excited to try this to feel the high on the same time afraid when see people becoming cranky after loosing their high.
"LOVE CAN ONLY BE FELT"
so if you love some one make'em feel it.
Your views and ideas are welcomed

FRIENDS

"Friend" whenever we hear this word we have a picture of people or of any specific person in mind.Everybody has friend/friends,but as they say exceptions are always there. if a person who has nobody to call as his/her friend or best friend does that mean that the person is not worth any relation. We often hear people saying about these individuals "hey stay away from him/don't talk to him, no body does he is weird/psycho.. "

         Now if  we see this from that individuals point of view he is new in this city, he is timid but he loves to make friends, and moreover he is very helping in nature still after a point of time his so called friends starts ignoring him/gets annoyed when he try to say something/paranoid about him, this all eventually leads to end of his friendship with these person. with time he develops or it will be more appropriate to say adopts a habit "Not to trust any one easily,rather don't trust anyone but yourself". and this in turn results in his current behaviour. every one gets pissed off by his new and changed behaviour but no one even his so called friends or those responsible for this behaviour never tried to figure out whats wrong with him. "Is this the Friendship they talk about??"  Every one is your friend until you are useful for them or helping you is not out of their comfort zone! we can not deny the fact that every body is selfish!. some time we just pretend to have a good/best friend but the time when you need them the most they either are busy with something/someone or they have a excuse ready i.e "I've told you before that i can't help this kind of situation i get irritated I'm sorry! "
From what I've learnt till now if you claim to be in a friendship or to have bunch of friends you either are fooling yourself or you are fooling them.
 
F-fundamental
R-relation
I-in
E-earth
N-nurturing
D-delusion
S-selfishness

It may sound too negative but from what we experience and what we see we've learnt that this is a sad truth. You may count this as my rationalisation but sometime,somewhere in your life you may have or you will experience this and if you don't then you are among those few lucky ones who are blessed with "FRIENDS"